Of Course Things Can Go Worse

     You would think at this point, nothing would come as unexpected.  But I guess given her health, there is no telling where and when something will send her to hospital.  Well last night, it did again.  It's unfortunate because now while she is gone, I have all the weight on my shoulders.  I can only assume that he drank last night, which is why he urged me to go to bed early...saying that he was going to weight up for her.  His track record says the opposite.  Always waiting for an opportunity to drink.  Makes it so much more easier when she is not here.  Easy when no one is around.  The kids must have gotten their sense of hiding things from others from their dad because they suck at it to.  I will not back down from being taken advantage of.  I'm tired of people waiting for an opportunity to pounce just because the moment is available.  These goddamn kids know better.  I'm tired of battling with them between right and wrong.  Dad by all means keeps giving them horrible life lessons.  Also of which he offers the path of least resistance because of being a lazy deadbeat.  He does work, but complains when he outside in the car letting it warm up about how bad it already is.  It seems he always looking for an excuse to be a dead beat.  Like last night...I'm going to wait up for her....STFU.  If it comes up, his excuse will be that he was doing stuff...WATCHING A MOVIE is much more use of your time rather then resting right?  Fuck YOU! Quit being cool dad and be a father.  You are not doing them any good by doing what you do all the time.  Sure, they be good base qualities but that is not what your children are learning.  All they know is where to go to get whatever they want.  Sit down with them.  Teach them something.  Make them listen.  It won't be easy.  It's not supposed to be.  That doesn't mean you do whatever you want to shut them up so you don't have to be bothered.  Grow a pair and be a FATHER.