Whata a love?

Been left feeling like I'm just a body or placeholder. Don't feel any love lately. Feel like I've been abandoned physically and emotionally. It was was tough already knowing that I fell last in line for consideration or attention. But now that even worse. 2 more people are in the house and I fall behind them now. There have been good times and bad times this past 2 and half years. But during those bad times, are some of the worst times I have ever experienced in my life. And that is saying something. My depression and overall sense of self worth has been it's lowest during this time. Don't brush my feelings away because you don't like that I'm telling you that you are making me feel a certain way as if it's my own fault for having those feelings. Maybe, just maybe, there might be something behind it all. Maybe, just maybe, you might be part of that problem whether you like it or not. Whether you mean to or not. I do not disregard you and I would like the same. Your suffering, does not give you a pass to treat people the way you do. To treat me the way you do. Because you treat me the worst. Stop. I hurt to. I suffer to. But I power through the best I can.ore than I can say for you. I don't get the luxury of a lengthy time out like you do. I understand my place here and you decide to draw a distinct line and make me feel like garbage. You can talk to me in a way other than a slave. I constantly put my feelings and body aside of which you don't notice that I do. So a little bit of courtesy and manners would go a long way.