Hate

The title of this says it all. I hate everything now. But most of all, I hate myself. I have no one around me to boost me up. No support. No encouragement. No one showing any concern.  I feel that I go out of my way to check on people and make sure they are ok. I feel resentment growing more and more within me and that fuels the hatred of the world around me. I'm surprised that I have let loose the rage that I feel is just below the surface. What do I do? The person that I love, is falling apart and saves energy for everything else. I don't even want to bring anything up for I fear the answer. I guess ignorance is bliss. I guess the sadness outweighs the rage and hate and guilt. I should have died already. What do I have to live for? Would anyone even shed a tear for me? Does anyone even care? I wouldn't know.